MC C.B. the brand.

Whats my edge, its a question many many people have asked. In short its a fancy way of asking,"how can you be marketed?". Its a bit crude and i cant help but feel objectified at the very idea of being "sold", alas Que sera sera. I choose to do music as a professional and this is what professionals do.

As an underground rapper, it is hard doing all the things that need to be done with only yourself to look at if things go array. Recording, performance, and the ways things are going, production all fall on my lap. This creates a lot of issues, aside from the simple fact that im only human. I have reached out to my manger on the subject. I have yet to receive word, but the tone a context of my email was simple.

We must try Harder.

Its the only way i can create an "edge" for myself. My music honestly means nothing in the eyes of the public, They dont KNOW me. So they dont care enough to buy a ticket or spend time checking out my music. Only through various promotions will i be able to gain real fans, and some sort of "edge".

SO i must do something to make me known, a few ideas a podcast, giving music away for free. Basic things but nothing that can help me on the level that i need it to.

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Depressed is the lost artist, trying to find his way.

track listing

Due to a new least on my music, I have been rethinking the track listing for the C.D. In time i want to be able to erase all the low and depressing tracks with more upbeat and lovable music full of wide eyed hope. This leads to the question people are bound to ask me, "why finalize such a bleak track listing?". Well honestly i wanted junk story to be the story of something thrown away.

How ever i wanted it to an uplifting story, The story that no matter what, we retain who we are. That nothing, experiences, or trauma can change how amazing we are. In creating the music for the C.D. I feel i may have lost focus, just throwing songs on that are passable, songs i find good to my ear, how ever they didn't stay close to the source martial.

I assume it took this finding of a "muse" to remind me that i wasn't forsaken, that none of us ever are. That no matter what Junk retains what it is through all the transportation through junk yards. Our hearts remain hole, and our souls stay true. Maybe that is what i forgot that no matter what my past tells me, i know im worth the time and effort, and my music should reflect that undying optimism.

Now this may sound all peachy king, but if i go ahead and change the current product im looking to completely changing the mixtape order and throwing a HUGE wrench into my summer plans, The question is though do i act as an artist, Or take the reigns as a sound business man? 

The things i do to myself. 

I found a Muse in the most unlikely places.

It was about a month ago, when i finally rapped up the junk story Mixtape, and pushed A extremely negative force out my life, that i saw this random facebook profile. It was of a really cute girl. I added her with out bating an eye, As the song goes little did i know.....

We started talking and a felt a real connection a feeling that was honest to god amazing.

now in the re-recording of music i find myself at a lost for the proper emotions to express, my life has been pretty leveled and exciting,  but that doesn’t always translate in to great music. 

So i began to search my soul for any left over hatred or depression i may have felt from the past, and shockingly there was nothing to speak of, which then meant music could not be produced in that past mind set. This is normal, At least for me in creating music. So i figured ill take a break and focus on enjoying life, That’s when things began to get complicated.

Now the random face book profile belonged to a girl, we will call her "ninja", talking to and seeing her, i got that familiar itch. And i found my self-recording more and my writing and expression going to places i could never imagine before i met her.  I found my muse, and it makes my heart swell to the point of no return, To say such things.

Not saying im in love or anything extreme like that, the artist in my heart has just been awoken again. This feeling is beyond amazing.  

Ill attach my crown jewel in my songs about this muse, since she lives out on long island, Its titled L.I.R.R. for the rail road one of us takes every week.

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three years of work.

Today i finlize my projects track listing, The Junk Story Mixtape, Is very real and completed. 

This isn't to say I'm done with said project. Now if anything i must gear up into the most unpleasent part of this industry, the marking, photo shoots and of course booking alot more shows. That machine though hopefully wont kick in to much later. Right now i want to take time to carefully break each track down, as to carefully explain the project in a way that i may not be able to do once the promotian gears up.

Junk Story by MC C.B.

1. Dried ink(prod. by Uyama Hiroto)
This track was originally a poem i penned, towards the end of a relationship. It speaks on being left in a deep dark room, alone. and how love shouldn't be so. Set to Uyama Hiroto's Last Transit , i feel its a great mood setter for the first half of the C.D.

2. Its only Fair(prod. By Shin-ski)
This song is about being left in the cold by the ones you love, its set to "vega" by pseudo hip-hop jazz producer Shin-ski. I wrote this song as a way to convey my disappointment in the people around me at the time of the production of this CD, it was very hard in many ways creating what i felt was art and being left out in the cold, by my friends, Etc. It was therapy in its rawest form. It also continues the idea, that junk is always "thrown away" before its story can be told.

3. Time to compromise( prod. By DJ Whitesmith)
Perhaps the most telling of all the tracks on the project about my most recent past relationship, In it i keep asking "for a bit of time, and a little bit of patience". As i just wanted to explain all the mis understanding, how ever in the song, just as with life, she was to busy chasing another man. And in the song such as real life, I gave up.(Thank you for your time, thank you for your patience)

4.Junk Story(A)(prod. by Valentin)
Junk story which is the title track for the CD tells the story of a junkie. What the person is strung out on remains to be interpreted. Set to the brooding track of "against" by producer Valentin, it is spoken from the perspective of a friend trying to save his friend from the issues of abuse. I wanted to convey that we are all addicts, And in being so we should all understand that what addicts go through. No one Should be thrown away, as every pieace of junk holds its on unique story.This also caps off the first "junk" part of the mixtape, from this track on the CD retains a more upbeat and hopeful out look.

5. Complex divisons. ( prod by Sega)
Another poem set to a lovely calm beat. I attempted to explain the addicts side of the story, explain how much he loved "her" and how he wanted it to work. He also knew he messed up on many levels. but he knew it and in many ways he was ready to move on.

6. Past decisions (prod. by Shin-ski){formally Foolish youth}
This song was ornglly recorded under the name Foolish youth, it told the story of a boyfriend feeling bad about the way he treated a girlfriend in their earlyer years. The video of said song can be found.
here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qcn4EcRkaR4
I re-recorded however due to a change in personal preference, She did wrong as well. So hes sorry, but hes not.

7. Imperfection( prod. By nomak)
Set to in the Dope, by acclaimed producer Nomak, Imperfection explains that no matter what im not perfect, and the people telling me to give up can .... you get the rest. This is a personal fav, as i hope people can take it and apply it to them selves, Very hard, very aggressive, very real track indeed.

8. Rebal from the waist Down( prod by Vybez beats)
This song is a feel good song, about being drunk and letting your waist tell you where to go and what to do. It shouldn't be taken to serious, I placed it here as a way to counter balance the seriousness of the latter half of the mix tape. We all want to drink and dance, at some point no?

9.Do for love(tupac remix)
I wrote this song to the classic tupac song, Do for love. It talks about falling in love to quick And all the stigmas involved. I hoped to create some sort of understanding that i know falling to quick is not right or healthy, but sometimes we cant help but fall for the person who has captured our hearts. Just as tupac explained in his version, I did my best to readjust the song for a modern generation.This is also the only "unoriginal" instrumental on the CD.

10.I was thinking....(pro by Kondor)
Remember  how it was in high school? trying to talk to that boy or girl you really liked from afar? I went back to that innocence place for this song. I take the place of a shy timid soul just trying to convey adaration to the girl of his dreams. It contains a focal point i believe we have all been some place, and hopefully will be again.

11. Stay with you(Prod. By lemon Jelly)
This may be the odd ball out of the track listing( haha). It contains a 1970's sampled beat made by techno savvy group Lemon Jelly. It loops the sound, Stay with you, Over and over. I take the place of a scorned lover doing his best to show his girlfriend he , well wants to stay with her. He pleads his case with no real resolution at the end...Poor guy. :)

12. This is love( Prod. Force of nature)
Perhaps the oldest of the bunch, This song has been around in one version or another since 2006. I have recorded it many times, trying to get the feeling right. Its a personal favorite live as the crowd loves chanting "LOVE" and being part of the experience. Its about well, Being in love, and how wonderful that can be. Produced by acclaimed Samurai champloo( a Japanese Anime show) composers Force of nature, it is a song Tied to the act of falling in love. This is love.

The Tragic hero trilogy ( all three prod. By Suburban)
13. Broken desire
14. Edward scissor-hands
15. Say anything

These three songs tell the story of the tragic hero, And his attempts at.....To be honest i dont know. They where poems that sort of happened, They are RAW, in the sense that none of them are written its all emotion what you hear. But it does retain some since of form. Broken desire is anger, Edward is loneliness and Say anything is tragic love. The version they are lumped together in such a way is to insure the each are listened in order, as they where recorded in such a fire storm of passion i felt to separate them would be down right wrong. Its Tragic that such feeling has been displayed on this CD as oppose to someone who could appreciate such loving and course words.  But that is why our hero is a hero, He stands his ground even in the face of unbelievable opposition. looks like i found out.

16. Little did i figure( prod. By Uyama Hiroto)
The last track, I wanted to send the listener off with an upbeat end to an extremely emotion CD. Little did i figure i would fall in love. It is a saying i have somewhat perfected, and others have as well im sure. This song tells my experience from encounter to capture. Its playful sweet and honest, and honestly the best way to say good bye.

Junk.Story.in.A.Nut.Shell.

We are what we say we are.

I came, I saw, I rocked. 

We are who we say you are. It makes sense in writing but in living it is something completely different. On March 27 I had my first Major Solo show. IT was titled the junk story showcase, and it was amazing. 

I came out and left my heart and soul on that stage, I think the audience felt it. The energy was at a fever pitch as I took the stage I calmly explained who I was and what I do, and that they will need to participate. I then went into my set.

At points during the set I had two friends come on stage with me as I sung my trademark song, “its love” as the crowd chanted with me. It's the way I wanted it to be.  Many people told me that they would be there, that they understood how huge this moment was for me, those people how ever failed to show. This, I took as a direct slap to my pride. IT didn't take enough to back out.  A simple call or message would have been fine, but they disrespected my music, and me as a result. I have yet to contact most of those people, as I don't believe getting any sort of resolution would be needed. You are only as good as your word, throughout my music I have done my best to promote such beliefs, if you cant stand behind a simple promise, there’s is no way I can ever trust anything that person says.

This is of course because this was my first chance to make a profit through my music.  With a 5 $ door and a one drink minim the chance to make serious buck was presented, sadly it didn't sell as well as it could have. But the experience of rocking the crowd with lyrics built from my heart, well that is much more profitable then I could ever imagined.

For those that showed up and supported, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.